To The One Who Loves Me Most

I admit, I haven't been thankful, for everything. Or maybe so I was, only on the big things. I know I don't always recognize it all and acknowledge You for what You have done, but I am grateful for all that it was. I know You've never left me out or let me stray long enough to ruin myself. You've never let me go chasing down my heart's selfish desires because You know it would not be good for me. And it may hurt a bit much, whenever you pull back and take away what I've been holding on too much. But Your grace always takes me back to my feet and I always come back running to You. 

Yes, I know that many times you'll purposely break me. Even if most of the time it will leave me in tears but I know that that pain was for my good. Because You know better and You love me too much to see me get hurt. I may not always see it first hand and I may result to question Your ways but at the end of the day, all the pieces just fit. They fit together, perfectly; and I always see You, as my protector and my saviour. I see Your wisdom and love over everything. But I confess, that most often I lose faith and patience. I lose myself to anxiety and discouragement. Even when I know You, still I doubt because I look to myself rather than fix my eyes on You.

I guess what I'm trying to say is, thank You. Thank You for keeping me and holding my life together, for not missing out a single detail of it and for taking control. Not for a minute was I forsaken by You.

And I love You. You have been the most amazing thing that's happened to me. You are what keeps me going even when there's not enough strength to rise up. You are my purpose, to strive and keep pushing forward. You are my hope to see what is ahead of me, remembering that the present is nothing compared to the joy of You coming. You are my love, the love of my life, my unconditional love, the love I don't deserve.

I love You, Lord. And with all my heart, I am thankful and I am blessed to have been found by Your grace. Jesus, thank You Love, for everything.